Sometimes songs just get stuck in your head…
The La’s // There She Goes
There she goes
There she goes again
Racing through my brain
And I just can’t contain
This feeling that remains
I’m gonna throw this out there….and yes, it’s probably my fault….BUT
jesus fucking christ…..your girlfriend is “out with the girls” and you think it’s ok to text me and tell me how hot I am and how much you miss my legs?!
I’m obviously pissed off enough to post this that this is not a one time occurrence nor is it with the same man.
Really? Fuck right off…..
Yesterday was amazing. I started the day off wishing the one I call “beautiful” a very Happy Birthday !! I know that birthdays are a special day for anyone, after all it is a starting point of how you came into my life and made me the hapiest guy in the world. Anyhow have I mentioned how I have OCD and I tend to try to multitask a number of things at once. LOL As you can see I think about her every second of the day, and I enjoy that in my life. Ok back to my amazing day I drove to her house with my youngest child and ordered pizza for lunch which was great. Hey did I mention that I love food, later subject, FOCUS …….ok then the birthday cake that her kids decorated was awesome. After we lounged around the house it was off to the mall for some shopping, I love to buy her things. After the mall we went to applebees for supper with mom and grandmother. It was a great time just being with her and holding her hand and knowing that she was having a great day. After i took her and the family back to her house it was time for the youngest and myself to travel back home 35 miles away. I always tell her that I love her and she always replies I love you more. I missed her as soon as the door closed behind me and it is going to be hard the next 48 hours because a snowstorm is going to put a major roadblock in my getting to see her sooner than I had hoped for. But knowing she had a amazing day on her birthday makes me just as happy as she. :O)
My brain is stuck on stupid today,the switch seems to be broken to get me back to normal……but what is really normal? Today has started out great as always.I slept in a bit,my beautiful girlfriend fixed me breakfast and now we are sitting on the sofa watching tv before we shower and head to Red Lobster for lunch before I have got to take my youngest son to a drs appointment later this afternoon. With that I am very happy how my new year is already headed. :O)
I think about alot of things throughout the day. How are my kids, what’s for lunch, is it going to be cold today. All the small details that make my day complete. But one person in my life right now consumes my thoughts every minute of my day. I know deep down inside that she was meant to come into my life and that with all the energy I have in my body I will love her unconditionally. She makes me smile just thinking about her. I love that she makes me dinner when I get home from work at 10. I love that she texts me throughout the day, just because. I love that when I tell her that I love her, she always replies with I love you more. I always try to put my feelings into words so she knows how much I love her, but there aren’t enough descriptive words in the dictionary to explain how much I love this woman. I want to be her rock forever, the solid foundation to build happiness to the clouds, the caring person she has deserved in her whole entire life. She is truly a miracle that was placed in my life and I truly understand that there isn’t another woman like her that will probably enter my life like she has. With that I can honestly say that I am the luckiest man alive today. And I love her for everything she is.
Where do I start. I have fallen in love with the most amazing woman. She doesn’t even have to tell me anything but I know what she is thinking for the most part. I think about her from the time I wake up until the time I close my eyes. Her children are awesome they have let me get to know them and I thoroughly enjoy talking and laughing with them daily as I do with my own children. I love her friends, the interaction she has had with them growing up really makes me happy that she has a strong circle in her life at all times. I have let her in my circle and she will always be in my circle. I love the way she laughs all day long, I love her smile at the breakfast table, I love her eyes that connect from across the room and I know exactly what she is feeling. She has truly been the missing piece that makes my life complete. I understand everything she wants in life and everything she deserves in life. I know that the little things that I do without thinking about them are the things she loves the most, so I will continue giving her unconditional love knowing that she is the one that gives it back unconditionally too.
Today started out early but I am far from tired with the great day that I spent with my newest friend. She is more amazing in person than words can be expressed on blogs, emails, or a profile could do for her. I felt like I have known her my whole life. She is witty, funny, a caring mother, a compassionate friend. I could look onto eyes for hours and watch her smile and ask what is wrong with my hair lol. Nothing is wrong with anything about you. I loved holding hands with her in the mall because she picked me and I picked her. I loved watching her smile about getting her nails done today. Because she said they make her feel pretty no they make you smile and your smile makes her beautiful. Right now I feel like the luckiest guy in the world to have met someone as special as she is. I cannot wait until I get to spend more time with her again she is truly a beautiful and wonderful person that I am glad came into my life today.
Let me start by saying that the last two days have been great. I feel like I have a connection with someone that I haven’t had in quite awhile. She is easy to communicate with and her personality is out of this world. She has some concerns that she might scare me off over the next few weeks. But I am full speed ahead starting today to look into her eyes, to hold her hand to make her feel loved again. In a way that only she knows deep down inside. I post this note this morning for all to see but only for one to know what I really am feeling for her. Its really nice to be called on a whim or texted just because. I told her the other night you found me …and I am most grateful that you did. You are exactly what I have been looking for in life. A strong minded person that knows what she is looking for in life also. With that said thank you for coming into my life at this time. You have made my heart skip with your beautiful smile and the smile you have put on my face. Now to get a nap in before lunch time. Ttyl
Trying a new thing in life …writing about random things ,some funny some sad some just crazy. i hope you enjoy them all.
